Someone burned down my car last night

A couple of cops gave me the good news at 5:30 AM this morning. Then I was late for work because the 3 cabs that I called didn't turn up. Pretty rotten start of the day.

All work and no play makes Shane a dull boy

I'm so tired today. I took some work to do at home, but I know that in the state that I'm in right now, coding will be an exercise in frustration. So I've been reading some essays about software on the web. It occurred to me that I shouldn't be doing that.

I shouldn't be in front of my computer. Why can't I just tune out, veg out in front of the TV? Why do I get fidgety if I am not doing work? Why can't I relax completely even when I'm with friends for a night out? Why am I not satisfied with my last uni group project, even if we scored 94%? When did I become so obsessed with perfection? Why do I read and reread what I just wrote? Why can't I just bang out something and post it? Why am I more irritable these days? Why do I need my concentration? Why am I holding my breath?

I've been reflecting on the past, thinking useless thoughts. I have changed. Shane, meet the new Shane. Shane, say hi to the old Shane. Which one do I prefer? I've exorcized some of my old demons. I'm keeping them in check. Am I grinding myself to oblivion at the same time? When was the last time I felt truly relaxed? When was the last time I thought of anything else but work? Can I live with the new Shane? Can others? Has my quest for improvement been taken too far?

Things have been adding up. I've been getting good grades, will be graduating soon, got a job, applying for Permanent Residency. All the while losing something that I am not willing to contemplate losing.

Ironic

Is that ironic or what? My chipset supports sideband addressing, but not fast writes while my graphics card supports fast writes but not sideband addressing. Oh well, it's time for an upgrade anyway. Maybe in a few months when I can afford it.

My first full time job

Yesterday was a significant day - I got my first full time job, and I feel so lucky. I will be working full time as a web developer at bam creative as soon as my exams are over. This there will be no holidays for me when I finish my degree, but hey, I don't care! I drove straight to subway after I signed the employment contract, to let them know that I won't be coming back to work after my exams. They were happy for me, even if this means that they will have to find and train someone else to replace me.

Everything seems to be falling into place. I'm applying for my premanent residency in Australia, graduating and I got a job where I get to do what I love doing. The people at bam creative are great. The atmosphere is informal and everybody get along very well. I have been made very welcome for the few times I've been there. I'm sure I'll learn lots from the team. Hopefully I'll be able to get up to speed pretty fast. I will probably have to put in extra hours getting familiar with the projects that I will be taking on, but I won't be the only one doing that. Most of the staff seem to stay over after hours. I guess that's what you get when people are doing something they are passionate about.

But I'm getting ahead of myself... There's this small event called exams that I've got to take care of first.